This resonates with me deeply. I was in a similar state last year some time, as of late I realized I made it through that darkness without noticing. I was so focused on each step forward that by the time I looked up I realized God guided me out and it was behind me. The contrast has made this period of joy so much sweeter. I pray for a similar experience for you.
So perfectly said. Life is such a beautifully painful thing and that anxiety of morbidity is real but choosing hope above it all is where life happen, where love and peace live.
wow emma. this may be my favorite piece of yours yet—i was in a dark place last year and for the first time my usual anxiety was accompanied by depression. you really captured exactly how that felt in this, and i feel so seen. thank you for posting and writing about this topic. i hope you’re doing ok and know that you are loved and can make it through anything!!
I love everything you write I don’t know how you do it. I’ve had so many similar thoughts that you shared in this and it’s always nice to know we are not alone.
Emma this was so beautiful. I hope you know I listened to this while getting a coffee on my break time because I knew it’d be a banger. I feel the same. I go up and down constantly and I wonder if it’ll always be that way. And actually never having those down times scares me too because I just would always be waiting for the shoe to drop. I think I realized also lately that I am just a deeply emotional person and even when I’m not depressed I still feel things very deeply and that is not something I can get rid of. But there is such a beauty in being able to experience such deep engulfing emotions. Obviously depression sucks and it’s not pretty, but I think it’s made me a deeper feeler than I would’ve been otherwise. Anyways that’s the end of my rambles my break is over now lol!
parts of this felt almost too real to restack bro i was mentally crippled by a similar subliminal existentialism recently. i felt so mentally foggy and vague and intangibly anxious!! the way you’re able to put those feelings into words is insane (in the best way)! your writing always meets me exactly when i need it most. <3
You once talked about a "kinship" between our writings I think. There couldn't have been a better word to describe it. I particulary liked how you pointed out that thinking about the worst takes the same energy as thinking about the best. It's funny, I often rush back to negative thinking like it's an old, worn out cardigan that itches and that I actually hate, but I put it on easily anyway because it's just... familiar. Even when I have other, better clothes. You find a weird comfort in hurting yourself and you think that's just who you are, but it doesn't have to be this way. Idk, just gave me some stuff to think about 🤷♀️ well done ladybug ❤️
This resonates with me deeply. I was in a similar state last year some time, as of late I realized I made it through that darkness without noticing. I was so focused on each step forward that by the time I looked up I realized God guided me out and it was behind me. The contrast has made this period of joy so much sweeter. I pray for a similar experience for you.
thank you almond, that means so much to me <3
So perfectly said. Life is such a beautifully painful thing and that anxiety of morbidity is real but choosing hope above it all is where life happen, where love and peace live.
thank you so much rion!! <3
wow emma. this may be my favorite piece of yours yet—i was in a dark place last year and for the first time my usual anxiety was accompanied by depression. you really captured exactly how that felt in this, and i feel so seen. thank you for posting and writing about this topic. i hope you’re doing ok and know that you are loved and can make it through anything!!
thank you so much m!! <3 i’m happy to hear it resonated with you, and i hope it makes us feel less alone in going through the depression! 🫶
i feel this so deeply. please know that you are not alone in that feeling🫶🏻🫶🏻 hope is the lighthouse in the darkness!
thank you caroline!! 🫶
I love everything you write I don’t know how you do it. I’ve had so many similar thoughts that you shared in this and it’s always nice to know we are not alone.
thank you so much lydia! it’s nice to hear that too. we really aren’t alone in it 🫶
Emma this was so beautiful. I hope you know I listened to this while getting a coffee on my break time because I knew it’d be a banger. I feel the same. I go up and down constantly and I wonder if it’ll always be that way. And actually never having those down times scares me too because I just would always be waiting for the shoe to drop. I think I realized also lately that I am just a deeply emotional person and even when I’m not depressed I still feel things very deeply and that is not something I can get rid of. But there is such a beauty in being able to experience such deep engulfing emotions. Obviously depression sucks and it’s not pretty, but I think it’s made me a deeper feeler than I would’ve been otherwise. Anyways that’s the end of my rambles my break is over now lol!
ahh I’m so glad it resonated with you!! it means so much to me that you took time out of your day to listen to it! <3 thank you so much
This is beautiful. Prayers for you and I’m sorry to hear you’ve gone through some rough periods 🥺🫶
thank you soph! I appreciate that so much <3
parts of this felt almost too real to restack bro i was mentally crippled by a similar subliminal existentialism recently. i felt so mentally foggy and vague and intangibly anxious!! the way you’re able to put those feelings into words is insane (in the best way)! your writing always meets me exactly when i need it most. <3
I'm so glad it resonated with you mj! <3 thank you, my friend
I hope you climb that mountain and appreciate the small things in life that will remind you that life is actually so beautiful <3
And from the peak of that mountain you will see that the vale has beauty in it as well and maybe it won’t be so hard after all
thank you for such kind and encouraging words, mai! <3 I appreciate this comment so much
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This is incredible Emma!
thank you Aaron! :)
"I’m climbing up the mountain again." got me a little tear in my eye. this is beautifully written emma, some parts really resonate within me
“ I am equal parts anxious for company and wanting to hide myself–to heal my wounds alone. “ ugh well said
*sobbing from my shadowy corner* This resonates so deeply and gives me so much hope that our efforts to get back up are worth it in the end
You once talked about a "kinship" between our writings I think. There couldn't have been a better word to describe it. I particulary liked how you pointed out that thinking about the worst takes the same energy as thinking about the best. It's funny, I often rush back to negative thinking like it's an old, worn out cardigan that itches and that I actually hate, but I put it on easily anyway because it's just... familiar. Even when I have other, better clothes. You find a weird comfort in hurting yourself and you think that's just who you are, but it doesn't have to be this way. Idk, just gave me some stuff to think about 🤷♀️ well done ladybug ❤️
thank you, jack!